And So It Goes...

Is it Unrequited Love Week and someone forgot to tell me?? I know I have a commemorative t-shirt in here somewhere that I can toss on if it is. I should have a full dinner service, running shorts, and a throw for that matter. I may very well be the unrequited love poster child. Those of you keeping up with my exploits know that I had a wee bit too much wine on Saturday and proclaimed my love for a wholly unsuitable subject (one of those hetero folk). Having the patience of a saint, Lisa has not rejected me as a friend and we spent the better part of the day discussing relationships. Translation: we depressed the hell out of each other about our prospects. Lisa's are much better than mine as she's actively in a relationship at the moment and despite my never-ending amount of charm and adorableness, she's still just not hip to the whole lesbo thing. I told a friend the other day that I'm pretty darn close to just clubbing Lisa over the head and dragging her off to a hypnotist to make her gay, so if you see her please don't spoil the surprise!

Anyhoo, I just turned on American Idol and Paula Abdul picked one of my all time favorite songs for David Archuletta to sing. Unfortunately, he had to do the AI abridged version, so it lost a little something during his performance. Here are the full lyrics:

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

The song brings me right back to a crush of yesteryear on....say it with me....a straight girl. LOL. I have to laugh at my own stupidity because it makes it seem like I'm aware of how ridiculous I am and can control it. But it did occur to me earlier that for nearly every unrequited crush, I actually have dated someone and have been in a couple LTRs. (Though technically, are you allowed to call it an LTR when it ends? What's the time requirement for the L part?) I was pretty much in relationships from the time I moved to Richmond until the Dark Lord dumped me and then there was an uncomfortable diversion for about nine months a year or so ago. So my dry spell has been pretty recent. Which leads me to believe I need to just take a deep breath, do some work on my teeny tiny house, and know that the right chick is out there somewhere. Granted, the odds are very slim she's actually in the Norfolk/Virginia Beach area, but that's a headache for another day. In the meantime, does anyone know a good hypnotist??

PS -- I'm attempting to ride my bike 6 miles to work tomorrow morning (and theoretically 6 miles back in the afternoon unless I take a cab). I have to assume there will be some sort of story about this by the end of the day tomorrow... Wish me luck!