Maybe It's the Vitamin D...

I don't often take my mother's advice (nor ask for it, truth be told), especially when it comes to things of a romantic nature. Don't know if it's because I'm gay and we had some...uh...struggles with that when I was younger that are burned indelibly on my psyche or if it's just my nature in general. I do absolutely appreciate knowing she's there if I do need to turn to her and I think she in turn knows I'm pretty bad off when I call needing to speak with her. She can usually tell by the fact that I'm sobbing before she answers the phone. :)

Anyway, what I'm trying to get to is that while I don't often take my mother's advice on some matters, I don't question her on vitamins or supplements. She cured my badly wrenched ankle (and subsequently some of my friends') by convincing me to take glucosamine/chondroitin/MSM and while it may just be a placebo effect, it worked, so who cares?

Mom's new supplement is Vitamin D. I don't remember who told her but he/she stressed that we don't get enough of it and Mom and her friends are popping them like M&Ms and supposedly everyone has a lot more pep in their step.

So I've added a double dose of Vitamin D (because the average concentration isn't enough according to her source) to my now daily routine of: multivitamin, fish oil, gingko, and Flexamin (the aforementioned glucosamine/chondroitin/MSM). I'm not sure if it's doing anything or not, but my house is clean, I stacked 3/4 of a cord of firewood last night, I've gotten motivated at work, and I've run during lunch over the last three days.

Now some of this may just be coincidental. I've got some things I'm trying to actively work on and in doing so I'm trying to tackle chores as they come up and take care of myself instead of putting things off. I'm also officially in training for a marathon in March, so I'm running daily as a survival mechanism. It just so happens that I feel pretty darn good about myself as a side effect.

Alas, since my life is one big golf game in which only two of the three components are ever working well at the same time (drives are good, short game is good, putting's in the sh*tter), one of my friendships is suffering again.

Things are the way they are.
Things are the way they are.
Things are the way they are.

I hope beyond hope that I will not rail against this in my next life. I can't begin to explain how frustrated I get when the general population at large -- and the people who are important to me specifically -- don't see that we are here for a BLIP in time!! Oh, it drives me out of my mind!! I know everyone is doing the best they can. I know everyone is on his or her own timetable...but we waste so much time!!!

And I'm yelling at myself in there too, so don't think it's just you. :)

I'm not living up to my full potential, are you? Some of it I have control over -- my career, my hobbies, my raison d'etre. But some of it is out of my control -- some of it involves other people and they're roadblocks to my realizing my full potential. So what to do? Do I wait for them to catch up? Do I ACCEPT that things (people) are the way they are and just ACCEPT what they have to offer when they offer it?

So many questions, so little time.......

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Get to livin' or get to dyin'. Good luck to all of us! :)